MY LIFE

I will post about my favourite artistes, shows, rants, thoughts and God in no particular order. I will also post about words that really impact me, because I am a words person. 

To my RL friends: If you have already read a rant, and I try to rant to you again in RL, you can just tell me that you have already read it on my blog. I really don't want to bore you with things you already know.

Games to buy (PS3): MW3 (!!), Assassin's Creed: Revelations, Battlefield 3, Uncharted 3
Track: (x)
To Watch: Awake, Smash, The 2-2, Touch, Common Law

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 On flight right now, and paying an exorbitant price for the use of basic wifi. I do feel loved, seeing people who are close to me wake up early and come send me off. My family is notoriously good at letting go, and my mom left even before I walked to the departure gate. I will honestly miss my close friends who know my antics, and gosh, Skype is a MUST. 

Business class is super comfy, haha, and yep, definitely a good start to the trip. Random turbulence is fun too. Woo, an air stewardess just predicted my lunch menu. 

Took some fun pictures, and looking forward to upload them online. 

As usual, my travel blog is hazeltravels.tumblr.com.

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Having mixed feelings, about traveling and leaving home for such a long time. Having dinner at a hotel now, and to think that is what my life is going to be life in the next few months. I can't say that I will go home and back to my room to sleep, that I won't be surrounded by the comfort of my room when I am there. My room and space is temporary.

Gonna miss my family and close friends the most, the comfort of being in a comfortable space, that I know.

It is no doubt going to be fun and exciting, but there is also comfort in knowing a place throughoutly.

Much mixed feelings indeed, since I am mostly used to ten to twelve days trips.


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So, my first visa got approved and got sent to my place. That is faster than I expected. But, when I opened my passport to check for details, horrors of horrors, they got the expiration date wrong. And given that it was already 11 pm when I checked, there is no way I can call the embassy to inform them of the mistake. And when I stare at it, all I can do is to rage and laugh at the same time.

Rage, because I planned my visa applications right down to the last detail, and it needs to fit the timeline, so that I can actually make my flight on 14 May. And the embassy screwed it up, and now I may face further delay if they cannot get their act together and solve the issues of both visa together. And I chose to go for prayer meet, which delayed my discovery of this issue. And I also prioritised going to LG over making payment for my second visa, which delayed my application time for my second appointment, and by the time I made the appointment, it was too late to schedule an emergency one. Yes, I have sent the embassy emails about both issues, and have opened cases for them. 

Laugh, because I honestly can't believe that I thought I could do this without God. Both my visas are in a mess, and the only way I can come through intact in this whole mess is if it is in God's hands. I have taken it upon myself to plan every single step, and yet my methods and plans are all failing me. Only God can pull me through this crazy mess. choosing prayer meet and LG over this visa thing, I ultimately know that God will honour it.

Shall just lift it up to God, and see how this entire situation will turn out with Him.  

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Having experienced the full process of the US visa application, I am now more prepared for my second run through. While I do like trying new things out on my own, this experience was one that I could have lived without. Regardless, I now know how to make the right steps at the right time to minimize the amount of trauma that I will have to go through this time round. 

I think it hasn't really hit me yet, that i'll be leaving for so long. And the cost of this trip has cut me off from any future university exchanges, unfortunately.. But at the same time, it is US and NYC, and while Germany could have been amazing, studying and working in NYC is also an experience that will be worth the sacrifices.

I might even be grounded for two years, before I can even contemplate a second degree, and by that time, I think I'll aim for a Masters instead. I'll be too old to consider pursuing another undergrad, given my dream of achieving higher education.

Ah well. 

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Have completed my final exam for this sem. YAY! Ending early is a thrill I like, so shall try to schedule another next sem. 

I get about 2-3 days of rest, before I have to start worrying about NYC stuff. And this sem's results, and coping with next sem. And coping with NYC Summer School..

But for now, SLEEP AND REST!! :) Organising my iTunes and my hard drive :)

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It is the end of the sem now, and many changes are taking place. People are leaving for different things in the summer, and that always makes me feel nostalgic. When we were in sec school and JC, everything seemed so constant. Nothing ever changes, and people left for vacations during the holidays, but they still came back. Now in uni, everything changes, every semester. Who I am close to depends on my timetable, and theirs too. 

After this sem, I am no longer taking German modules, and that is definitely change after four consistent sems (five including immersion) of German language modules. That will be a change. 

Many things are going to change soon, especially with the summer coming up. 

Sometimes, I wonder, why maintain so many relationships, when I know, to me, only a few that are close to my heart really matters? Guess that goes to show that I am an introverted person, gaining my energy from hanging out alone. 

Summer is a time of change, and I hope with this change, I will get closer to the person that I envision being. Or perhaps, a person that God has envisioned me being. 

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SERIOUSLY. HELPLESSLY. ANGRY. CONGRATS ON YOUR DELUSION. UGH. Never stepping in there ever again.

At least now I know that your opinions cannot be trusted. Your advice on singing, maybe. But your thoughts on plot? NO. 

( Crazy stan talk - and my rebuttal - Spoiler for Glee 3x17 )

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I really, really like spending time with you. Cos I am myself with you. So thanks for meeting me so often, and let's keep this connection even when I am in NYC.

Also, today's ep. Good. Sufficiently satisfactory and broke my heart well enough. P.s I skipped all the Will&Emma and Quinn&Joe parts.

I can't stand it when fandom has to deconstruct and episode completely and assign blame. No, wait, deconstructing is fine, but assigning blame. I hate it. I hate it when people are forced to take sides,( Spoiler for Glee 3x17 )
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31 hours and counting down. Ugh, this feels exactly like episode 5, except the frenzy built up earlier, but we also knew the auditorium scene was final? And we got the laying down scene? 

But this episode, all we get is ambiguous tweets and words from the cast that was weeks ago. And we get to rely on the fact ( Spoilers for Glee 3x18 - 3x21 ) We fear as much for the storyline, as the consequences. What if the storyline is sucky? I don't care if they fight, I just want it to be valid. 

Given that 16 of those hours are likely for sleep, 15 of those hours will be used in a productive manner, such as studying for finals. 

And 40 hours to the next final paper. 

Today's paper is much better than expected. Really thank God for it, cos I did panic for about half a minute when I saw the choice of questions. Luckily, with God's wisdom and memory work, was able to make one of the unexpected choices work. Now it is submitted and in God's hands. Focus on the remaining few.

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